Brand New Me!

So, here is a new me. There will soon be a new-new me, but that is a work in progress! This blog is titled specifically because I'm terribly lazy when it comes to exercise. Food I have down---I love it, and I love to eat healthy options (with the occasional sweet treat or greasy burger!).

Let me give you a brief history of myself. When I was 13, I was already at 153lbs. Which at 4'11" is quite a lot! I was fairly active though. I'd walk home from school (2 miles), or to my best friend's house (another 2 miles!) but my eating habits were atrocious. I continued with these habits until my first year of high school. I wanted desperately to eat better! So I cut out soda and lost 15 pounds. Gross, right? I was very encouraged and began my diet overhaul. I ate very healthy, but combined with depression and anxiety, things took a bad turn.

I remember hopping on the scale after 2 weeks of dieting. I had gone from 147 to 138 in two weeks. I took this as encouragement! That's a wonderful weight loss! However, my thoughts began to change into, well, if I'm eating 1,000 a day and losing this much, what would happen if I went down to 800 calories? I'll tell you what---the next three years actively battling with an eating disorder. Two years later I dropped down to 115. Now, at this height, that's still healthy. But I diagnosed myself with ED-NOS, Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified. This meant that I did not meet the physical criteria for Anorexia, but I did have the mentality and the self induced harm that went with it.

At 16 I started smoking and drinking. Like most high schoolers. My confidence wavered frequently, and I had a job at that point. So, I decided to buy diet pills. These had ephedra in them which completely messed with my heart rate and made me weak and irritable. And they honestly didn't work at all. I remember when I started popping adderall---it was amazing to me. I was 17, in my last semester of high school, and it boosted my levels all day. Without eating, of course. I remember after fasting for 3 days and fainting constantly, staring up at my ceiling on a day off, contemplating why I was even doing this to myself. There's always a dark side. Another time I had taken it two days in a row, and hadn't eaten. I had come home from work, and my parents were trying to get me to eat. I threw a fit, and ended up passing out in front of them.

Enter College:

Where all the bad things taste delicious and you're forced to eat crappy cafeteria food. So I blossomed from 110 up to 140. 3 years later and a year long relationship in to my fiance (who can eat ANYTHING and not gain!), I now am in the 160's. I refused to weigh myself for over a year because of the eating disorder. I did not want to trigger it---instead I ignored it.

So, onto the next part of my life! I'm down 5 lbs from 166 last week, and I am determined to get back to 110 in a healthy way. I have so many things to look forward to, including graduation, getting married, and moving down to Florida, all in the next year or so.

To all my future readers out there, this is coming from a lazy girl! I am determined to get off my booty and do this right. I just started incorporating exercise into my days---And I'm starting Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred today. I'm so excited, and I hope you all will see that it is possible, even when you don't like moving that much!

Here are my current stats:

Height: 4'11.5" (That .5" matters, damn it!)
Starting Weight: 166
Current Weight: 161 (as of 8/9)
Goal Weight: 110---or until I feel amazing!

It's not always about weight! It's about how you feel about your body, and the life changes you want to make.

My blog will offer many things! Food porn (who doesn't love it!), fitspo, musings, recipes, beauty tips, and some other goodies.

Thanks for reading!

xoxo
Whitney